2-12-12 seemed like a good date to publish the first preview image from my graphic novel, because the story has a lot to do with numbers and dates. I've done five preview images of some of the main characters so I'll post one a week for the next five weeks.
They'll all be posted here.
I'm still a long way from being able to post actual pages, though (maybe I'll aim to launch it on 12-12-12?). This project has become truly overwhelming in size and I can only work on it in the little free time I have. As I've mentioned, I've already put a year and a half of work into my graphic novel and it'll take a lot more work to see it through. It feels like running a marathon in thirty-second installments, and it often feels overwhelming and like a totally foolish thing to have undertaken.
All artistic projects are foolish, of course; in doing anything original and sharing it with the world you're making yourself vulnerable and opening yourself up for ridicule and rejection. In doing your own personal thing, you're sacrificing your precious free time and running a huge risk that all your hard work will lead to nothing. It's a daunting task and that's why almost all projects that are undertaken are abandoned and forgotten and never see the light of day.
There are always many more good reasons not to do something than to do it. I don't have any good reasons to do what I'm doing; I really don't have the time to do it, and I'm not planning on making any money on it, and yet...I've really enjoyed doing it so far and somehow it feels like something I just have to do.
Anyway, if nothing else, maybe my tale of bold and audacious stupidity will inspire you to undertake your own personal journey. We all have something personal that we're dying to do, and I can only assume most of us don't pursue it because we're afraid we'll be ignored, mocked or rejected.
Yet as scary as it is to risk ridicule and suffer the unkind words of others, it seems sadder yet to never take your shot and share that thing with the world that you're dying to share.
Whenever I get discouraged and think that it would be easier to not pursue some foolish path, I think of Patton Oswalt's track from "Werewolves and Lollipops" about how difficult it is to write a movie and stick with it through all the difficulties that come along with such an undertaking. He talks about how whenever he has doubts and wants to abandon a script he's working on, he thinks about a movie that actually got finished called "Death Bed: The Bed That Eats People" (which, yes, is actually a movie that got made, although technically the REAL title is "Death Bed: The Bed That Eats") and wonders about the author of that movie, and how he could have worked through all the doubts he must have had while writing "Death Bed". If you've never heard it, Patton's great routine is on youtube (just search "Death Bed") but be warned: it's got NSFW language.
So in honor of 2-12-12, I hope in some small way I might inspire you to do your own audacious and stupid thing!